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m_madeleineSo I took part in the Season of Kink bingo this year - and actually got a bingo done, yay! \o/ (Bingo card here for full disclosure. Isn't it lovely?)
Herein follows a post in which I blather on about the resulting fics a bit, because this was a fairly big work-intensive event for me and I wanna make it a big deal, plus this is my journal and I write what I want. Cue villainous laughter. Onward!
1. Non-impact painplay
Blind Faith, Heartache / Mind Games, Mistakes (1) - Top Gun, Ice/Slider
2. Bloodplay
Blind Faith, Heartache / Mind Games, Mistakes (2) - Top Gun, Ice/Slider
I’d written both of these as tiny 200 word double drabbles in the middle of a shitty writers block, just to get anything finished at all. Held off on posting because I didn’t feel like drabbles are especially successful on AO3 and I wasn’t sure it would be worth it. Really glad I hesitated, because once I received the card, I went, huh, these work really well for two of the squares! Then I proceeded to expand them and flesh out the respective kinks a bit more, which proved unexpectedly difficult. Just hard to motivate myself to work on something I already wrote off as finished, which can absolutely make it harder to write 300 words than a whole new 500 or 1000 :D I was a lil sad to let go of the crisp 0.2k wordcount, but I do like how these have turned out.
3. Non-body fetish
I waffled on for quite a bit about this one, because I’m not usually a huge fan of characters going wild for, like, leather jackets or glasses, etc, just not that interesting to me. Not sure how and why I ended up going with trousers, but this was pretty much the first thing I started writing for Good Omens, I believe? (Good Omens really came through, I didn’t have a whole lot of ideas for the bingo before it). I really enjoyed burying myself in a more Aziraphale-y style after after all the very informal modern things I’ve been writing. This started out very cozy and quirky, but then I got hit by feels halfway through...and ended up having a whole lot of trouble reconciling these two moods.
Another difficulty was that this needed quite a bit of research to really live up to its potential and…research bores me, tbh. Most kinds of it, anyway. I will gladly do fact-checking, because I am mortified of getting things wrong, but! Research just for flavour? For atmosphere? Ehh. So yeah, I’m not sure that this did live up to its potential, but it’s the best a non-researcher could do, I think.
This thing went through a whole journey, I’m pretty sure I have about 5 gdocs of different versions and got my bro private_snarker to read over one of the drafts, which is something I don’t usually do because the cringe over own WIP writing being exposed too bad. Really needed it in this case, and somehow actually managed to find a solution and whip it into shape!
4. Object penetration
Heaven, similar to: Hell - Good Omens, Aziraphale/Gabriel, non-con warning!
This one wasn't easy to come up with too, because while I do like the kink, I’m only just starting to get even remotely comfortable with writing explicit stuff. Just...not great at describing physicality? But then oral seemed like a great solution and I was into the idea of making it this little missing scene. Not a whole lot to say about this one actually, it was a medium-difficult process. I got most of it done, and then procrastinated on closing the gaps for a bit. The last step was fleshing out the physicality of it, as well as Aziraphale’s reactions, which I found difficult to do without getting too repetitive. In this process it kind of became more distressing and explicitly violating, I think. Good Omens really got me interested in exploring some darker themes and content, which I hope to do more of.
5. In public (free space)
I swallow your heart and you make me spit it up again - Good Omens, Aziraphale/Crowley
This one was actually my plan B for this square! I’d gotten this mostly done quite a while ago, during the bingo but unrelated to it, and kinda just let it languish in my drive while procrastinating on the finishing touches and boy, am I glad I did. The first choice for the free space was an impact pain play fic with historical setting (also A/C), the kinky part of which I wrote very quickly and very enthusiastically, but then the set-up just. Refused to happen. At some point I got frustrated and felt like the entire premise of the fic is flawed, but was too invested in the idea to just throw it out there in mediocre execution. I may revisit this at some point (I’ll def try!), but I couldn’t do that to my satisfaction in the couple of weeks I had left - so I was very happy to remember that sad car blow jobs still existed! And fit another kink perfectly fine.
Fun fact, this one pulled a bunch of influences from different places, mostly The Arctic Monkeys’ new album, especially Star Treatment, with its retro sadsack mood, and Ocean Vuong’s poem “Ode to Masturbation”, which I first heard a lovely drag queen perform at a drag festival this summer. I decided against blathering on about that on AO3 (did mention Vuong, but didn’t quote from poem as originally planned), because it felt pretentious and self-indulgent, but yeah! What’s my own blog for if not for being as self-indulgent as I want. Some pertinent passages:
in the backseat
midnight's neon
parking lot
holy water
smeared
between
your thighs
(...)
some call this
being human but
you already know
it's the briefest form
of forever
-Ocean Vuong
Love came in a bottle with a twist-off cap
Let’s all have a swig and do a hot lap
Baby, that isn’t how they look tonight, oh no
It took the light forever to get to your eyes"- The Arctic Monkeys
